In the last couple of weeks I am feeling so much better about all things. I am happier and looking forward to moving to Phoenix after Oct 15. I will miss Indiana … but not that much. I will miss the people I work with the most. I will miss all my friends both old an new. I will miss Ken. He was such a positive influence for me over the past 5 years and I will never look back on all of it with any anger or sadness. It was a great ride. I will probably do it again someday. But in time!! and slowly. After we broke up and I got over the seperation anxiety, I realized that I am a very good person and always have been. I needed to know that after we broke up and with the friends I have and the new ones I have met, I know now what a wonderful, attractive and giving person I am. I thought to have lost that over the last 6 months. But I got it back. After time had passed Ken said he was sorry for making me feel that way. He was going what he was going through and told me he always thought I was a giving and loving man. He also told me that I was a very handsome and attractive man and he didn’t want me to think otherwise. That was nice. We were just so different on so many deeper levels and I do understand that now. I am glad we are friends and I hate to admit it lately… but I am glad it’s over. We were just wrong together as a couple. but great together as friends. I know things with us will only get better.
