Well it has been 5 months in Arizona and I love it. I am feeling real good about Chris and I and it seems to be getting better all the time. However, Ian will be leaving to live in Portland and I will miss him a lot. I wish he wasn’t going but he needs to have his own adventures in his life. His mom seems alright about it but I believe she is sad and not trying to let him know how much she will miss him. I know I will!!! I really missed my family this past Memorial Day weekend. It reminded me of past Race weekends and I missed all of them. However it was this weekend last year that Ken and I finally broke up and I was devistated and Felt like shit until I met Chris in December. I have forgiven Ken and I really like him now. But when I think of May to July 2009…He becomes that Fucking Asshole all over. But I AM over it and I do …like I said… really like him a lot now. And I do believe I know what true love is now. I feel so different about Chris than I did about Ken. He is, at times, a little work… but so worth it!!!
