As the last few weeks have unfolded I have dated a lot and found ONE person that I would like to continue to date… Not a relationship.. but just date.. I went to Visit Glen last week and he opened my eyes a little and made me realize.. I need to be alone for a while. He is a little TOO alone but that is his choice. He was fun. We went to Magic Mountain and had a riot. We just hung out the other days and talked and laughed quite a lot. I miss him. He is a hard person but a good friend!! I had dinner with Chris last night and as much as I like him.. I think he was such an asshole the last few months we dated. I am now starting to believe he will be a great friend… But as a boyfriend… I seemed to have dodged a real Bullitt there.. I do love him now in a different way. But god… he was SO not for me.. I need to start thinking that I am the real catch in any relationship and I need to decide what I do and do not want in a relationship. I believe I am doing that now. I tend to piss guys off after a date and tell them that I just don’t feel it. After all… I am ME!!! Guys have always liked me. But I need to like them and make sure they have what I want. Not what they do or what they do for a living or what they have or what they can do for me!!! CLARITY IN THAT AREA HAS COME TO ME….FINALLY!!!
